Did I ever say that I HATE people who always say how important it is to be honest and talk about problems with the concerned person and never do it. Just like one (I always thought she is my best friend) is doing to me now.
but that is some stuff she was always really good at. saying what has to be done but never do so. but now the difference is, its about me and everyone knows cause she can talk to all her "freinds" but not to me.
nobody wants to tell me because they don't want to betray her. I can understand that a little. But why did she talk to them about her problem with me. thats just our business. But I still dont know what the problem is, that she seems to have.
since two weeks I didn't hear a word, she doesn't answer my phonecalls and SMS.
I am desperated and disapointed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I cannot trust her anymore. And if we are going to talk about it one day I dont think that it can become a friendship like i always thought it was.
You should see me right now. I dont want to see myself. It looks not so healthy anymore.
the only one who is always with me is my cat. she is always there for me.
and sorry that my english is so disgusting today. but I am not able to write properly.